Demons inside my head
Recycle continually
Controlling where I'm led
Darkening habitually
One day I wrote them down
Scattered about my feet
On black paper though still around
I've a panorama- sweet
[Pre-Chorus]
Thinking of how I act...
Replaying old behaviors
Those sinful patterns I attract
I wrote on yellowed papers
Then... thinking of each friend in turn
The ones that faded away
After leaving me to burn
I wrote them off... in grey
[Chorus]
Which sheets can I replace today
As in new ways I think and do?
Adding colors that shine away
Making steps for a life that's new
(Colors that shine away)
(Colors that shine away)
[Verse 2]
First... I start before a mirror
And play out who I want to be
Chucking what's been inferior
I dress the part... of my new me
Where chaos had been my friend
I now have much more space
Freedom... with time to spend
Finding sheets of golden lace
[Pre-Chorus]
Still, I wonder... Is this but a quick fix?
As I have set down my history
No... with the weight dropped, brightness clicks
Flooding hope's light for victory
[Chorus]
Which sheets can I replace today
As in new ways I think and do?
Adding colors that shine away
Making steps for a life that's new
(Colors that shine away)
(Colors that shine away)
[Bridge]
Back to the mirror... I take out a big pen
And draw a hand before my eyes
Out stretched, inviting... open
Reminding me of Christ
A perfect friend, I've found at last
His truths are beauty to my mind
As now I'm thankful for the past
And new colors mine to find
[Final Chorus]
Which sheets can I replace today
As in new ways I think and do?
Adding colors that shine away
Making steps for a life that's new
(Colors that shine away)
(Colors that shine away)
thoughts from reading
Transcript "Christ-Centered Healing from
Depression and Low Self-Worth
Carrie Maxwell Wrigley, LCSW
BYU Education Week, Aug 15, 2005
Who has not known a time Where they felt to pull away Distancing...bent to find A pebble enlarged and gray
Cycling in depression Creating but more pain As a means of expression Letting the life pulse wane
A negative thought Perpetuates the cycle Where one's continually caught In a downward spiral
And alienated From sources of help One seems fully fated For a time of hell
The abyss is deep Can the covers hide? As the body sleeps Feelings still reside
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There's a light shining in the darkness Ever exciting to talk about As it's a brightness one can harness To chase away despair and doubt
Ever Christ's light is a north star Guiding us to heaven's gate When we seek it...we go far So....let us not hesitate
He is the pathway from depression For He offers light that makes us whole To a broken heart...comes impressions Unto purity of mind and soul
Given today through living prophets We've modern day guidance we need Our lives were not meant to be perfect But a chance to grow and strive indeed
Feelings and knowledge are all we take When, of life...we depart It's through covenants that we make That His light sweetly imparts
After using up all one's resources Yet...still relapsing, ever more miserable A belief within us courses That our only hope is a miracle
Reading to discover God's love all anew There to resolve my awful dark plague What can I, like the woman with an issue of blood, do? But, reach out for Christ... filled with faith
These words put fire into my spirit There to settle within my bones Light does come as we search for it Dispelling the darkness that each man owns
"We live in a time the Lord foretold" Said our beloved prophet, President Benson Men's hearts are failing and becoming cold As Satan overcomes minds unto depression
The path of safety is self-reliance As instant gratification is Satan's tool And we can't depend solely on science As we struggle in life...ever our school
"Salvation is nothing more or less than triumph" Said Joseph Smith who had reason to despair We can put enemies under foot knowing who to rely on As we turn to God...He provides care
Discovering for myself at every stage How to rise above dark feelings that oft come Likening this disease to how an illness does wage And to how doctors prescribe as a means to overcome
First there is an assessment To complete a diagnosis Unto intervention and treatment Marked for a desired prognosis
Recovery being the expectation And relapse the prevention A flowing for rehabilitation Without intending assessment's extension
With the Savior...we heal from the inside out Not so dependent on outside sources Unto overcoming despair and doubt As the spirit like a fire courses
Let us put depression at our feet And rise form our beds more made whole That the threats of our day- we can meet Through inspiration, service, and goals
Take out paper...write everything down Then truly seek the Savior Tell Him of your desires to be made sound Then...be patient, making record of God's favor
Activate revelation And give service while searching light Pray oft without reservation Continually, reaching up... unto new heights
Shall He take away each consequence? Or our inability to sleep No... but He'll stay with us, hence That our long nights might be made sweet
Always we have the scriptures To place before our eyes There to see heavenly pictures Painted for us by Christ
In Light and Truth, He does visit Giving support perfectly That in trials we do witness His arms of mercy protecting
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able
A belief within us courses
That our only hope is a miracle[Verse 1]
There's a light shining in the darkness
Ever exciting to talk about
As it's a brightness one can harness
To chase away despair and doubt
Ever Christ's light is a north star
Guiding us to heaven's gate
When we seek it...we go far
So....let us not hesitate
[Pre-Chorus]
He is the pathway from depression
For He offers light that makes us whole
To a broken heart...comes impressions
Unto purity of mind and soul
[Chorus]
Light and Truth, He leads me through
Light and Truth, He makes me new
When the dark comes closing in
His light pulls me home again
Light and Truth, I reach for You
Light and Truth, He carries through
[Verse 2]
Given today through living prophets
We've modern day guidance we need
Our lives were not meant to be perfect
But a chance to grow and strive indeed
Feelings and knowledge are all we take
When, of life...we depart
It's through covenants that we make
That His light sweetly imparts
[Pre-Chorus]
After using up all one's resources
Yet...still relapsing, ever more miser
[Chorus]
Light and Truth, He leads me through
Light and Truth, He makes me new
When the dark comes closing in
His light pulls me home again
Light and Truth, I reach for You
Light and Truth, He carries through
[Bridge]
Reading to discover God's love all anew
There to resolve my awful dark plague
What can I, like the woman with an issue of blood, do?
But, reach out for Christ... filled with faith
These words put fire into my spirit
There to settle within my bones
Light does come as we search for it
Dispelling the darkness that each man owns
[Chorus]
Light and Truth, He leads me through
Light and Truth, He makes me new
When the dark comes closing in
His light pulls me home again
Light and Truth, I reach for You
Light and Truth, He carries through
[Outro]
Always we have the scriptures
To place before our eyes
Light to see heavenly pictures
Painted for us by Christ
In Light and Truth, He does visit
Giving support perfectly
That in trials we do witness
His arms of mercy protecting
Demons inside my head
Recycle continually
Controlling where I'm led
Darkening habitually
One day I wrote them down
Scattered about my feet
On black paper though still around
I've a panorama- sweet
Thinking of how I act...
Replaying old behaviors
Those sinful patterns I attract
I wrote on yellowed papers
Then... thinking of each friend in turn
The ones that faded away
After leaving me to burn
I wrote them off...in grey
Which sheets can I replace today
As in new ways I think and do?
Adding colors that shine away
Making steps for a life that's new
First...I start before a mirror
And play out who I want to be
Chucking what's been inferior
I dress the part...of my new me
Where chaos had been my friend
I now have much more space
Freedom...with time to spend
Finding sheets of golden lace
Still, I wonder...Is this but a quick fix?
As I have set down my history
No...with the weight dropped, brightness clicks
Flooding hope's light for victory
Back to the mirror...I take out a big pen
And draw a hand before my eyes
Out stretched, inviting... open
Reminding me of Christ
A perfect friend, I've found at last
His truths are beauty to my mind
As now I'm thankful for the past
And new colors mine to find
thoughts from reading
Transcript "Christ-Centered Healing from
Depression and Low Self-Worth
Carrie Maxwell Wrigley, LCSW
BYU Education Week, Aug 15, 2005
He's Been There Before by Elder Troy Whittle The alarm bell rings at 6:30, I stumble to my feet I grab my companions bedding and pull off his sheets A groan fills the room, is it already time to arise? It seems like just a second ago I was able to shut my eyes
The morning activities follow- study, prayer and such When it's time to leave the apartment, you feel you haven't accomplished much "We have a super day planned," My comp. says with a grin I lowly utter a faithless breath, "Yeah, if anyone lets us in."
With the word of God and my faithful Schwinn, we ride off in the street prepared to Face another day of humidity and heat It's 9:30 in the evening, the day is almost through My champion and I are riding home not accomplishing what we thought to do
We ride up to the mailbox, hoping to receive a lot Only to look inside and hear my echo reverberate "air Box" We go up to our apartment, the day is now complete The only thing to show for our work is a case of blistery feet
It's past 10:30 p.m. My companion is fast asleep, Silence engulfs me all about and I begin to weep In the midst of sadness, I kneel down to pray I need to talk to father, but I'm not sure what to say
"Oh, Father" I begin, "What happened to us today? I thought we'd teach somebody, but everyone was away My hands, my aching hands- worn, hurt and beat; If our area was any smaller, we'd have knocked every street"
"Why on missions are the days so much alike? The only difference about today was the flat tire on my bike Will you send some cooler weather? The heat is killing me I sweat so bad, it gets in my eyes, it's very hard to see"
"Why do I have to wear a helmet, isn't your protection enough? People always laugh at me, and call me stupid stuff Please send us investigators so I may give them what they lack I want to give them Books of Mormon, the weight of them hurts my back"
"And what about my family: They don't have much to say I'm sick of not hearing from home day after day after day Oh Father, Why am I here am I just wasting time? Sometimes I just want to go home, I'm sorry but that's on my mind"
"My companion, Heavenly Father, what are you giving me? "The way he rides his bicycle, I don't think he can see Now you have it, I can't go on, I don't know what to do That, my Father in Heaven, is the prayer I have for you"
My prayer now finished, I stand up, then jump right into bed I need my rest for tomorrow, we have another long day ahead Sleep start to overtake me, I seem to drift away Then it seems a vision takes me to another time in another day
I'm standing alone on the hill. The view is very nice A man walks to wards me and says, "My name is Jesus Christ" Tears of joy well up inside, I fall down to His feet "Arise," He states, "Follow me to the shade. You and I need to speak"
My attention's towards my Savior, total and complete He says, "Your mission is similar of what happened to me I understand how you feel, I know what you're going through In fact, it would be fair to say I've felt the same as you"
"I even know how you felt when no one listened to you At times I felt not quite sure what else I could do I know you don't like to ride a bicycle, for you a car would be sweet Just remember the donkey I rode wasn't equipped with 21 speeds"
"I understand you don't like sweating, in fact it's something you hate I remember when I sweat blood from ev’ry pore, oh the agony was great! I see you don't like your companion- you'd rather have someone else- I once had a companion named Judas who sold my life for wealth"
"It's hard to wear a helmet and have people make fun of you I remember when they put thorns on my head and called me King of the Jews So you feel burdened down by the weight of your pack I recall how heavy the cross was when they slammed it on my back"
"Your hands hurt from tracting and knocking on doors all day I guess when they pounded nails into mine, I ached in a similar way It's hard not to hear from home when your family's not there to see I lost communication on the cross and cried, "Father, why hast Thou forsaken me?"
"We have a lot in common, but there's a difference between us you see I endured to the end and finished my mission, so follow and do like me" He embraced me with His arms and His light filled me with His love With tears in my eyes I watched as He went back to the Father above
I stood with awe and wonder when a beep rang in my head I listened and heard the alarm, then realized I was in my bed My companion let out a groan, "6:30 already, no way!" I sat up and said, "Come on, I'll even carry your scriptures today!"
No matter what we go through, when we feel we can't take more Just stop and think about Jesus Christ, He's been there before By Elder Troy Whittle Texas Houston listen to this as a song Mission https://ldspoetrybykellymiller.blogspot.com/2008/06/hes-been-there-before.html
The Church of Jesus Christ of Latter Day Saints
These poems are my own thoughts and impressions as I study the gospel of the Church of Jesus Christ of Latter- Day Saints
I encourage you to read from the Book of Mormon and the standard works, and listen to modern day prophets, also, that your mind and heart might be touched.
