Here I Meditate

Here I meditate
On what Thou means to me
I am but a waif
Who is in need of Thee

I am simply lost
And more I am confused
When Thine mercy I have tossed
And my talents go unused

Thy love completes me
It fills me with such light
That even through the evening
I find holiness so bright

When I am in trouble
Thou art who I first run to
For with Thee I am able
To face the world anew

Pray my mind not wander
That I can learn from Thee
As this morning how I hunger
To make sense where I'm struggling....

In most things that I do
There's naught that does impress
When my boss does her review
It's thin, I must confess

And, now with just one week
I know that I must shine
It's through prayer that I seek
For confidence that is mine

Here I'm the only Saint
What example does this set?
When Thy picture I should paint
My handicaps just won't let

My ears are not so good
My mind is not so quick
And I'm slow at what I should
Such that I am now heart sick

A Saint should be the best
That others might wonder
Where does she get her zest?
In this I've made a blunder

Now that I've said it all
I sit with tears that glisten
And like a child I feel small
That for Thy guidance I do listen...

This job's been a blessing
That helped thy family through
Midst trials that were stressing
But, now it's time for adieu

The struggle made thee humble
And, too, it helped thee reach
For blessings to enable
Through counsel I did teach

Thy kindness was a light
That offered hope and joy
And when thy tongue ye did bite
Quarrels could not annoy

Let go of envy and pride
And look for thine own growth
I have been by thy side
And have helped thine family both

Now with gratitude
I see things truly
And my attitude
Shines brightly and newly

Now I'm not depressed
In all that I am lacking
For I have been impressed
That the Lord is there for backing

Let me go to my associates
And express to them deeply
That their friendship I'll not forget
For they're in my heart for safekeeping