Begging for a Sign

 Suffering, in pain with cancer

and given just months to live

How I wish God would answer

How I beg Him for any sign

How I want to believe

For I know death is eminent

It would b a relief

A strength as cancer does not relent

I pray many times a day

Literally begging for a sign

A feeling a sense of presence

Something to hold to that is mine

I don't want grief to be my answer

I don't want to die and leave my family alone

Help me feel holiness linger

I pray Thou would make Thyself known

Help me to be a patient patient

Still my time is running out

That when I pass, my children

Will know to believe I'm still about

Verse 1] Suffering, in pain with cancer Given just months to live How I wish that God would answer How I beg for any sign to give [Pre-Chorus] I want to believe, I want to hold on Though I know the end is drawing near If relief could come with morning Let it leave me stronger than my fear [Chorus] I pray many times a day Literally begging for a sign A feeling, a sense of Your presence Something I can know is mine I don't want grief to be my answer I don't want to leave them alone Help me feel Your holiness linger I pray, Lord, make Yourself known [Verse 2] I know death is drawing nearer And the cancer will not relent Still I search the quiet moments For a kindness heaven might have sent [Pre-Chorus] I want to believe, I want to hold on With my children gathered close to me Give me one small thread of comfort Something stronger than uncertainty [Chorus] I pray many times a day Literally begging for a sign A feeling, a sense of Your presence Something I can know is mine I don't want grief to be my answer I don't want to leave them alone Help me feel Your holiness linger I pray, Lord, make Yourself known [Bridge] Help me be a patient patient Though my time is running out When I pass beyond their seeing Let them know what love's about Let them know I am not vanished Let the bond remain somehow Hold my family when I cannot Be their shelter, even now [Final Chorus] I pray many times a day Still begging for a sign A feeling, a sense of Your presence A peace I can call mine I don't want grief to be my answer I don't want to leave them alone Help me feel Your holiness linger I pray, Lord, make Yourself known [Outro] And if my voice grows quiet Stay near the ones I love Let them feel the love I carried And the mercy from above