Leaving the Church What Should I Do?

Leaving the church
From hurts... to search
For something else
But all else pales
To the light shone
From what is known

What should I do?
Pray, seek anew
Experiment
What this once meant
Find the gospel
Not the people

I am patient
Light will be sent
To brighter days
Through doubts that haze
A word, a deed
A void to feed

Then, I realized
My thoughts had lied
I had not prayed
or read for days
Light can be lost
Doubts are the cost

One thing's for sure
I must endure
Trials do pass
This will not last
In this journey
Of restoring